Okay ...Let's Try This Again.

So, If any of you have followed my blog prior you know that I was single back in December for a very short period of time. Well...I'm back at it again only this time there is no going back. I need to be single so I can sort through everything in my life currently and obviously my biggest priority is my son and myself. I went apartment hunting this weekend and I believe I may have found an apartment that I really like. I promised my son that I would include him on the decisions coming up that need to be made that way he understands I do value his opinions just as much as my own. In conclusion, I plan on taking him down to see it so he can get a feel for what I have in mind. The location seems pretty ideal, the library, the police station, and a man made lake are all within walking distance. The apartment is up to date with brand new appliances and its a 2 bedroom/2 bath for a decent price. I'm trying not to worry about the little stuff like furniture,etc and just trust that everything will work itself out.

I really have some great friends and family that have been a tremendous help through out me attempting to find my way. I had a good friend take me out Saturday night on a friend date. She really is awesome and is always encouraging me to try new things. She took me to a Middle Eastern restaurant for dinner and then we went to the movies to watch The Adjustment Bureau which was an awesome movie by the way.Anyway, this meant the world to me because I really needed the distraction this weekend and just needed to hear some positive uplifting and encouraging words to help me start feeling motivated about starting a new chapter in my life. I plan to try more new things that I've either been hesitant about trying or have always wanted to try back in the distant depths of my mind.

I truly believe that if we don't occasionally clear out whatever is old or stagnant in our lives that we cannot possibly have enough room for anything new to enter into our lives. I really admire the Eastern culture teachings of embracing suffering, letting go and living in the moment for I believe it promotes growth beyond our wildest dreams. Although many of us waste our time dwelling on what hasn't manifested in our lives, what is wrong, we sometimes hang onto these silly selfish things or people thinking that somehow we will just squeeze every little last drop of security out of whatever it is because we haven't got the time to just look within ourselves and trust which begins with letting go of any preconceived notion or idea. Reflection is not easy and it takes a tremendous amount of dedication and time to look within and really dig deep. Which is what I mostly plan to do in this next chapter of my life. I believe once I figure myself out I will then be able to determine what is is I am supposed to do for others as far as my soul purpose goes.