About a month ago I was laying in a hotel room at the Wildflower Inn in Sedona AZ watching the flames dancing in the fire place while patiently waiting for the sun to rise when the thought occurred to me "Life is but a dream." Why that thought popped in my head at that current moment still remains a mystery. It was definitely a trip that allowed me to relax and marvel at all the surrounding beauty and to appreciate life just as it should be.
As certain series of events have unfolded through out my life I've often questioned their purpose and what they intended to teach me or where they intended to lead me. Recently I've learned to stop questioning the significance of each event and to just live consciously while accepting everything as it is. To be able to comprehend how challenges and trials have contributed to the restructuring our lives, requires us to stop thinking selfishly and promotes thinking outside the box. I frequently hear that bad things shouldn't happen to "good" people but the more I mature the more I realize it really makes no difference. Regardless of what we think should or shouldn't happen to any of us our mind is an arrogant instrument but our soul is a humble one. The mind is incapable because it is is an instrument of logic and reason.
So, I look at this point in my life and I realize I'm here for a reason. The changes taking place are also happening for a reason possibly greater than I'm able to even comprehend.
+3
Monday, April 4, 2011
Sunday, April 3, 2011
Someone Pinch Me....Just In Case I'm Dreaming.
I had a great weekend and got to meet someone new whom I had not 1 but 2 great dates with this weekend. They went so well I could hardly believe it, I guess maybe I wasn't expecting to have so much fun with someone who was nothing short of being a complete gentleman. The first night we had dinner and sat and talked for 3 hours. I'm still trying to figure out how the heck I was able to come up with enough stuff to talk about within a 3 hour time window. At least within that 3 hour window we both agreed we wanted to see each other again and the sooner the better. Which is what led to date number 2 the next evening. I explained my situation about wanting to just take things slow and possibly building on the idea of getting to know each other because I'm taking a bit of a breather right now as far as serious relationships go because I'm trying to get my life in order.
Date number two is when things got a little more interesting. After meeting up we decided to do dinner once again but this time we ended up at my favorite restaurant (Popo's) so that was a plus.
We had plans to see a movie but obviously we weren't able to part from our food quick enough to make the showing and it happened to be the last one for the night. We drove around for a few minutes brain storming different ideas of things to do. He briefly mentioned that he'd even be willing to go roller skating (which I originally thought he was just going out on a limb to try and impress me with the sort of sacrifices he'd be willing to make) I thought there's NO WAY this guy would really be willing to go roller skating with me. Anyone that knows me well knows that rollerskating is one of my favorite things to do in my spare time and it has been ever since I was younger. Luckily I had my skates in the trunk of my car so I inquired a little bit further as to his willingness to go skating. He explained that he really enjoys skating and that he'd love to go. Ironically we happened to be very close to Great Skate out in Glendale so everything worked out perfectly. I think he was in just as much shock as I was that we were going to go skating. Apparently we weren't meant to make that movie after all, which is okay because we had so much fun. Which just means we will just have to save that movie for date number 3 but I'm not complaining :) in fact we've already started brain storming for dates number 4, 5, an 6.
So, I'm going to fast forward to the end of the date the part where before parting ways there's that awkward moment of silence followed by a long filler of "Ummmmm" and to make things even more interesting Thompson Square's song "Are You Going To Kiss Me Or Not" came on the radio. It was at that exact moment that I knew I was in trouble. I heard my date take note of what song was on the radio followed by him replying "Oh, wow." and which we both sort of laughed a little bit about it. I on the other hand was a little nervous only because I knew things had already been going so great and that the LAST thing we needed was for this song to come on at the most appropriate time. I tried to quickly change the subject and pretend I didn't realize what was about to happen but yeah that so didn't work! lol It was the perfect way to end a great evening and a great weekend. I've decided that whatever happens -happens and that I need not worry about trying to control the outcome of this situation. This time I'm going to be true myself and do things differently this time and just enjoy myself getting to know someone while having fun. Nothing too serious but nothing too light.
Date number two is when things got a little more interesting. After meeting up we decided to do dinner once again but this time we ended up at my favorite restaurant (Popo's) so that was a plus.
We had plans to see a movie but obviously we weren't able to part from our food quick enough to make the showing and it happened to be the last one for the night. We drove around for a few minutes brain storming different ideas of things to do. He briefly mentioned that he'd even be willing to go roller skating (which I originally thought he was just going out on a limb to try and impress me with the sort of sacrifices he'd be willing to make) I thought there's NO WAY this guy would really be willing to go roller skating with me. Anyone that knows me well knows that rollerskating is one of my favorite things to do in my spare time and it has been ever since I was younger. Luckily I had my skates in the trunk of my car so I inquired a little bit further as to his willingness to go skating. He explained that he really enjoys skating and that he'd love to go. Ironically we happened to be very close to Great Skate out in Glendale so everything worked out perfectly. I think he was in just as much shock as I was that we were going to go skating. Apparently we weren't meant to make that movie after all, which is okay because we had so much fun. Which just means we will just have to save that movie for date number 3 but I'm not complaining :) in fact we've already started brain storming for dates number 4, 5, an 6.
So, I'm going to fast forward to the end of the date the part where before parting ways there's that awkward moment of silence followed by a long filler of "Ummmmm" and to make things even more interesting Thompson Square's song "Are You Going To Kiss Me Or Not" came on the radio. It was at that exact moment that I knew I was in trouble. I heard my date take note of what song was on the radio followed by him replying "Oh, wow." and which we both sort of laughed a little bit about it. I on the other hand was a little nervous only because I knew things had already been going so great and that the LAST thing we needed was for this song to come on at the most appropriate time. I tried to quickly change the subject and pretend I didn't realize what was about to happen but yeah that so didn't work! lol It was the perfect way to end a great evening and a great weekend. I've decided that whatever happens -happens and that I need not worry about trying to control the outcome of this situation. This time I'm going to be true myself and do things differently this time and just enjoy myself getting to know someone while having fun. Nothing too serious but nothing too light.
Monday, March 28, 2011
Knowledge Is Power
For starters being single is A LOT more work than I had originally thought (But it does have it's perks). Secondly, some people assume that just because you are single that it means you are lonely and want to hear their life story in exchange because they think you might be interested in dating them.....how about NOT?!!! Thirdly, if you want my attention DO NOT honk at me because it scares the ever living crap out of me thus making me frantically spill my coffee all over myself like a damn fool. Lastly, I have decided that dating websites are strictly for entertainment purposes ONLY! The more people that ask me what I like to do for fun the more I end up liking my dog.
Saturday, March 26, 2011
The Great Purge
So I'm sitting here thinking about how great my day is going to be while listening to Ray Lamontagne's "Trouble" as I'm sipping on my morning coffee. I have the worst possible case of bed head at the moment and my son is watching Karate Kid for the thousandth time. lol But I realize as I sit here that I haven't been this happy in a long time, it's as if my soul is at peace with the recent changes.
This weekend has been dedicated to going through all of my belongings and figuring out what is no longer needed in my life. I'm not a hoarder or anything but I have definitely been guilty of holding onto things for way too long and I can't wait to finally let go. I don't want to feel held back or tied down anymore, I want the weight to be lifted so I can have a lighter heart. I just can't stop smiling this morning, I feel so happy yet I know I have a tremendous amount of work ahead of me I know that after all the sweat and tears it will pay off in ways unimaginable. Maybe it's the beginning that is the most difficult because we have to trust that everything will work itself out and yet we don't always know what's in store for us. I want to admire my life instead of wasting time wishing I had done this or that.
I don't believe that good byes are always meant to be sad. I truly believe they can also be second chances. Second chances for us to move on, progress, grow by allowing ourselves to detach. There is no greater feeling than granting yourself the permission to have the freedom of movement. I'm able to allow myself to let go so that I can embrace the inner peace that only comes from within.
"We say we waste time, but that is impossible. We waste ourselves."
This weekend has been dedicated to going through all of my belongings and figuring out what is no longer needed in my life. I'm not a hoarder or anything but I have definitely been guilty of holding onto things for way too long and I can't wait to finally let go. I don't want to feel held back or tied down anymore, I want the weight to be lifted so I can have a lighter heart. I just can't stop smiling this morning, I feel so happy yet I know I have a tremendous amount of work ahead of me I know that after all the sweat and tears it will pay off in ways unimaginable. Maybe it's the beginning that is the most difficult because we have to trust that everything will work itself out and yet we don't always know what's in store for us. I want to admire my life instead of wasting time wishing I had done this or that.
I don't believe that good byes are always meant to be sad. I truly believe they can also be second chances. Second chances for us to move on, progress, grow by allowing ourselves to detach. There is no greater feeling than granting yourself the permission to have the freedom of movement. I'm able to allow myself to let go so that I can embrace the inner peace that only comes from within.
"We say we waste time, but that is impossible. We waste ourselves."
Friday, March 25, 2011
When A Heart Breaks, It Doesn't Break Even
It's obvious that the heart that held two people together doesn't always break even when it comes to parting ways and breaking up. Wouldn't it be great if we knew how people were going to react when they go through a break up? I understand that it's not a great time generally but for one reason or another break ups sometimes seem to bring out the absolute worst in people. If we could just fast forward through everything we'd be able to tell who's going to be trouble in the long run, but I guess that is just part of the lesson to be learned once it's all said and done.
I've gone through a couple emotionally rough break ups and it seems that every time I go through a break up I lose some weight due to stress,etc. Hmmmm... I wonder if I'm onto something here? lol Nothing quite like being on the break up diet to kick off being single. Now If I could just manage about 3 to 4 break ups per year I'd be on my way to looking slim and trim again! lol
No, but really I'm going to make this blog somewhat short. There really is no reason you should ever be unkind. The brain prefers love. That's why we love to be in love, because it feels so good. There's no reason to be hateful towards someone else, you loved that person at one point for sufficient enough reasons to be with them in the first place.
I've gone through a couple emotionally rough break ups and it seems that every time I go through a break up I lose some weight due to stress,etc. Hmmmm... I wonder if I'm onto something here? lol Nothing quite like being on the break up diet to kick off being single. Now If I could just manage about 3 to 4 break ups per year I'd be on my way to looking slim and trim again! lol
No, but really I'm going to make this blog somewhat short. There really is no reason you should ever be unkind. The brain prefers love. That's why we love to be in love, because it feels so good. There's no reason to be hateful towards someone else, you loved that person at one point for sufficient enough reasons to be with them in the first place.
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
The Only Man In My Life
The only man in my life is the little man at my side. Who looks up to me with innocent hazel eyes that warm my soul. It is he, who knows my greatest strengths and fears and who holds the key to my heart filled with unconditional love. He's my biggest fan in addition he's my right hand man. Always willing to fix things around the house no task too big or too small. His smile melts my heart each and every time I see his devilish grin beside his big round cheeks. It's the moments he curls up next to me without saying a word and falls asleep. It's the moments when were driving in the car and a song we like happens to play on the radio when we start dancing silly in our seats. This is the man that climbs a rock wall fearlessly more times than I can keep count. He makes me laugh day in and day out and never allows me to lose sight on what is important in life. I can always count on him to go skating with me. He loves books and reading just as much as I do and he's pretty smart too. He knows what I'm thinking or feeling just about any moment of the day. He loves helping me in the kitchen and he loves to be my taste tester. He's the most compassionate man I know and he's always willing to share what he has with others. He can cheer me up even when I've had a really bad day. I am truly blessed to have him in my life and that is why he is the only man in my life little enough to be there. Everyone deserves to know this kind of love...
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
Potential VS. Reality
I have a tendency to see the best in everyone and sometimes I have fallen in love with the potential of a man, rather than the man himself. This has often contributed to my reasons for staying in relationships beyond their expiration date. As if I'm afraid I will miss out one day on what they could have possibly been but aren't already anyway. How ridiculous am I? lol
I've always fallen in love fast and without measuring risks first.I always seem to become a victim of my own optimism when it comes to romance. I need to hire someone to screen my future prospects and if I'm even remotely close to making a huge mistake maybe they could slap me a time or two. I need to start trusting my intuition and when I see the slightest red flag I need to be ready to RUN!
I'm slowly trying to adjust to the idea of being alone and I'm thinking that's where inner peace plays a huge role. If you are disturbed with anything within yourself then you won't ever be content with being alone. I worry sometimes about being lonely but if that's what it takes then I'll just be lonely for a while. Maybe I'll find some clarity during this reflection period of my life. There are way too many other people out there for me to ever have to settle for anything less than what I'm looking for. I have enough self respect to make sure that I will never put myself in another situation where someone else's needs or feelings become more important than my own.
I've always fallen in love fast and without measuring risks first.I always seem to become a victim of my own optimism when it comes to romance. I need to hire someone to screen my future prospects and if I'm even remotely close to making a huge mistake maybe they could slap me a time or two. I need to start trusting my intuition and when I see the slightest red flag I need to be ready to RUN!
I'm slowly trying to adjust to the idea of being alone and I'm thinking that's where inner peace plays a huge role. If you are disturbed with anything within yourself then you won't ever be content with being alone. I worry sometimes about being lonely but if that's what it takes then I'll just be lonely for a while. Maybe I'll find some clarity during this reflection period of my life. There are way too many other people out there for me to ever have to settle for anything less than what I'm looking for. I have enough self respect to make sure that I will never put myself in another situation where someone else's needs or feelings become more important than my own.
Monday, March 21, 2011
Sunday, March 20, 2011
Okay ...Let's Try This Again.
So, If any of you have followed my blog prior you know that I was single back in December for a very short period of time. Well...I'm back at it again only this time there is no going back. I need to be single so I can sort through everything in my life currently and obviously my biggest priority is my son and myself. I went apartment hunting this weekend and I believe I may have found an apartment that I really like. I promised my son that I would include him on the decisions coming up that need to be made that way he understands I do value his opinions just as much as my own. In conclusion, I plan on taking him down to see it so he can get a feel for what I have in mind. The location seems pretty ideal, the library, the police station, and a man made lake are all within walking distance. The apartment is up to date with brand new appliances and its a 2 bedroom/2 bath for a decent price. I'm trying not to worry about the little stuff like furniture,etc and just trust that everything will work itself out.
I really have some great friends and family that have been a tremendous help through out me attempting to find my way. I had a good friend take me out Saturday night on a friend date. She really is awesome and is always encouraging me to try new things. She took me to a Middle Eastern restaurant for dinner and then we went to the movies to watch The Adjustment Bureau which was an awesome movie by the way.Anyway, this meant the world to me because I really needed the distraction this weekend and just needed to hear some positive uplifting and encouraging words to help me start feeling motivated about starting a new chapter in my life. I plan to try more new things that I've either been hesitant about trying or have always wanted to try back in the distant depths of my mind.
I truly believe that if we don't occasionally clear out whatever is old or stagnant in our lives that we cannot possibly have enough room for anything new to enter into our lives. I really admire the Eastern culture teachings of embracing suffering, letting go and living in the moment for I believe it promotes growth beyond our wildest dreams. Although many of us waste our time dwelling on what hasn't manifested in our lives, what is wrong, we sometimes hang onto these silly selfish things or people thinking that somehow we will just squeeze every little last drop of security out of whatever it is because we haven't got the time to just look within ourselves and trust which begins with letting go of any preconceived notion or idea. Reflection is not easy and it takes a tremendous amount of dedication and time to look within and really dig deep. Which is what I mostly plan to do in this next chapter of my life. I believe once I figure myself out I will then be able to determine what is is I am supposed to do for others as far as my soul purpose goes.
I really have some great friends and family that have been a tremendous help through out me attempting to find my way. I had a good friend take me out Saturday night on a friend date. She really is awesome and is always encouraging me to try new things. She took me to a Middle Eastern restaurant for dinner and then we went to the movies to watch The Adjustment Bureau which was an awesome movie by the way.Anyway, this meant the world to me because I really needed the distraction this weekend and just needed to hear some positive uplifting and encouraging words to help me start feeling motivated about starting a new chapter in my life. I plan to try more new things that I've either been hesitant about trying or have always wanted to try back in the distant depths of my mind.
I truly believe that if we don't occasionally clear out whatever is old or stagnant in our lives that we cannot possibly have enough room for anything new to enter into our lives. I really admire the Eastern culture teachings of embracing suffering, letting go and living in the moment for I believe it promotes growth beyond our wildest dreams. Although many of us waste our time dwelling on what hasn't manifested in our lives, what is wrong, we sometimes hang onto these silly selfish things or people thinking that somehow we will just squeeze every little last drop of security out of whatever it is because we haven't got the time to just look within ourselves and trust which begins with letting go of any preconceived notion or idea. Reflection is not easy and it takes a tremendous amount of dedication and time to look within and really dig deep. Which is what I mostly plan to do in this next chapter of my life. I believe once I figure myself out I will then be able to determine what is is I am supposed to do for others as far as my soul purpose goes.
Friday, December 10, 2010
I've Got Sunshine...On A Cloudy Day
I'm so happy it's Friday that I can't stop smiling. Sometimes I wonder if people realize how easy it is to find a reason to be happy. It takes a lot less effort to be happy then it does to be miserable on purpose. Granted some people don't realize that they are making themselves miserable but I guess that is part of growing up, learning what you will and won't put up with anymore- even if it's of your own doing. Being happy doesn't cost us anything except the choice that is required to be made by each of us.
When checking my email which some consider to be a tedious task I came across an email that I wanted to share with everyone. Periodically I recieve uplifiting / inspiritational emails that help me think about something positive each day and they assist me to stay on track. This one in particular is a rather simple thought but again people don't realize that they cause their own despair about 90% of the time and by choice at that. I wish I would have realized this years ago and not wasted so much time before finally making the decision to be happy.
We all want the same thing. That is to be happy. How very simple it seems. So what stops us from being happy? We do. Our perceptions about what truly brings happiness get in the way of us being truly happy. But truly, happiness is a choice, no matter what fur is flying around us. So the question is not "To be or not to be...?" The real question is what does it take for us to BE happy? Examine this today and over the weekend and try not to get lost in the fluff.
Aside from ourselves, we generally want other people around us to be happy as well. Sometimes so much that it gets to the point that we're too busy taking care of other people's wants or needs that we often neglect our own. I believe that being happy can be contagious and that if we ourselves make it a point to live happy and be content that those of us around us that aren't happy will either follow your lead or slowly dissipate. Life is too short to waste time on being unhappy, we may never ever have this opportunity again. If there is any part of your life that you are unhappy with then you are simply not living your life from the core of your being. Once I realized this I started to get more excited about my life and the endless opportunies that are waiting for me.
When checking my email which some consider to be a tedious task I came across an email that I wanted to share with everyone. Periodically I recieve uplifiting / inspiritational emails that help me think about something positive each day and they assist me to stay on track. This one in particular is a rather simple thought but again people don't realize that they cause their own despair about 90% of the time and by choice at that. I wish I would have realized this years ago and not wasted so much time before finally making the decision to be happy.
We all want the same thing. That is to be happy. How very simple it seems. So what stops us from being happy? We do. Our perceptions about what truly brings happiness get in the way of us being truly happy. But truly, happiness is a choice, no matter what fur is flying around us. So the question is not "To be or not to be...?" The real question is what does it take for us to BE happy? Examine this today and over the weekend and try not to get lost in the fluff.
Aside from ourselves, we generally want other people around us to be happy as well. Sometimes so much that it gets to the point that we're too busy taking care of other people's wants or needs that we often neglect our own. I believe that being happy can be contagious and that if we ourselves make it a point to live happy and be content that those of us around us that aren't happy will either follow your lead or slowly dissipate. Life is too short to waste time on being unhappy, we may never ever have this opportunity again. If there is any part of your life that you are unhappy with then you are simply not living your life from the core of your being. Once I realized this I started to get more excited about my life and the endless opportunies that are waiting for me.
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
Time On My Hands
For the past few days I've noticed how much extra time you have once you're not in a relationship anymore. It's seems very similar to the time I quit smoking (2/21/09) and had to find something else to do with my hands (hehe) while trying my best not to think about it. It's alot different though, not having to worry about what someone wants for dinner or someone stealing the covers at night. I've been sleeping in my son's room temporarily and I've learned to never underestimate the power of a 5 yr old because the moment you do, you will wake up in the middle of the night only to realize that he's about to push you off the bed after rolling over. He also likes to practice Judo chops and kicks in his sleep and apparently has become quite good at it too.
Realistically, I've usually got things going on already as being a mom there's always various responsibilities.
Tonight I'll be making Christmas cookies with my son for his kindergarten cookie exchange. When I dropped him off before heading to work this morning, I asked him what kind of cookies he'd like to make tonight and he said Sugar cookies. I then asked him what he's going to put on them afterward and he said SUGAR and smiled. lol David sometimes goes to his father's house on the weekends and when he's gone I genuinely miss him anyway, but this past weekend I was even more lonely because he wasn't around to keep me busy. I used to have a lot of friends that were single back in the day and now most of them are married or in serious relationships. I guess as we grow up it seems everyone else does too. It's too bad they can't opt for rotating schedules of being single -who knows maybe the world would be a happier place?
Christmas will be really awkward and I'm seriously thinking about sleeping in the whole day since David will be at his Dad's this year. I wonder if the bars are open on Christmas. Yeah okay, I know that sounds bad because technically the two don't go together but honestly...isn't that what single people do? The family festivities only last a portion of that day and the rest of that day is lonely and boring unless you have kids. Hmmmm... Maybe I'll go to Margaritaville?
Realistically, I've usually got things going on already as being a mom there's always various responsibilities.
Tonight I'll be making Christmas cookies with my son for his kindergarten cookie exchange. When I dropped him off before heading to work this morning, I asked him what kind of cookies he'd like to make tonight and he said Sugar cookies. I then asked him what he's going to put on them afterward and he said SUGAR and smiled. lol David sometimes goes to his father's house on the weekends and when he's gone I genuinely miss him anyway, but this past weekend I was even more lonely because he wasn't around to keep me busy. I used to have a lot of friends that were single back in the day and now most of them are married or in serious relationships. I guess as we grow up it seems everyone else does too. It's too bad they can't opt for rotating schedules of being single -who knows maybe the world would be a happier place?
Christmas will be really awkward and I'm seriously thinking about sleeping in the whole day since David will be at his Dad's this year. I wonder if the bars are open on Christmas. Yeah okay, I know that sounds bad because technically the two don't go together but honestly...isn't that what single people do? The family festivities only last a portion of that day and the rest of that day is lonely and boring unless you have kids. Hmmmm... Maybe I'll go to Margaritaville?
Sunday, December 5, 2010
Nickelback - Gotta Be Somebody [Official VIDEO WITH LIRYCS]
I'm sitting here at my computer trying to browse potential rentals properties for my new life and I have the windows open because it's been a beautiful day outside and I like the fresh air. My neighbors on the corner have been nice enough to share their music with everyone in my neighborhood just in case we were curious what they were listening to. Now I love music and just about damn near everything but is it REALLY necessary that they play this song over and over? NO!
I can handle my windows shaking...but seriously? Not this song.
Call me bitter but I already know that somebody else feels the same somewhere and I'm not trying to think about that right now because that always gets me in trouble :/
Anyway,previously today I went to the laundry mat to do laundry because I wanted to get out of the house for a while. Plus, I like the thought of doing multiple loads simultaneously and throwing everything into the huge dryer and it drying everything a million times faster than the dryer I have at home. While I was there though I couldn't help but notice there was something different about one of the guys in there talking on his cell phone. First of all, he had an orange baseball cap on and a long sleeve flannel and he was wearing black and red basketball shorts with flip flops. He was talking somewhat loud and I couldn't help but over hear him telling his buddy that he couldn't figure out why some girl won't call him back. I don't know about her but I found it extremely difficult to resist the temptation to jump all over this guy because...
1) He does his own laundry and knows how to fold it.
2) He looks great in a baseball cap.
3) He's got lots of patience judging by what he threw together to wear so he could wash his clothes because he had nothing clean left. And last but not least-
4) He apparently is available too because I just had the not-so-pleasurable experience of over hearing him talk loudly on his phone in regards to being rejected - thus instantly making him 10 times hotter than he was when I first laid eyes on him.
Part 2 of the laundry mat....(of course my afternoon out of the house got more entertaining)
A different guy approached me and asked if there were any available dryers as I was loading my clothes. I looked around and saw just about every dryer spinning then turning back to him with a smile and answered "I guess not." He had his laundry slumped over his shoulder in a garbage bag and he proceeded to share his disappointment with me about how he's been waiting 2 days now to dry his wet laundry and unfortunately every time he gets there he lucks out because all the dryers are taken. Of course I raise an eyebrow and I'm wondering if he normally does his laundry this way and just prefers the smell of mildew or if this is the first time in his life he's ever attempted to do laundry.
While he's waiting for a dryer to become available he's paying no mind to the signs on the dryers that say "25 cents for 8 minutes" because then he asks me how many quarters it will take for his clothes to dry.
(Sigh) I hope this guy found his way out of the laundry mat.
A Little Laughter Therapy
I was talking with Kevin yesterday (My nail tech) and he mentioned that the Holidays were coming up, which I had actually made a point to forget until he reminded me. I was honest with him and told him that I wasn't really looking forward to the Holiday because for starters I won't have my son this year due to joint visitation and secondly my living situation is awkward because I'm single now,etc. Kevin said "Oh, no problem honey. That's why you find new boyfriend!" My answer? "Ummmm no, I'm taking a break."
He then immediately responded with "Ohhhhh, How about good time then?" - which I'm pretty sure he meant one night stand but obviously I couldn't catch my breath after laughing so hard long enough to tell him he's a very bad influence.
Not to mention I complimented him on the nail counter at the salon because the set up was very nice and all the nail techs shared their stations on this nicely finished high top bar instead of individual nail stations. I told Kevin that I liked it and that it sort of reminded me of the bar, especially with the flat screen behind him. After that being said I told him the only thing I was missing was a margarita. Without skipping a beat he joking told me "We don't have margaritas here but we have marajuanaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!" lol
Which totally cracked me up because it caught me off guard. In conclusion I learned that nail techs make better comedians than counselors because sometimes they're CRAZY!!!
So, once again I survived...
He then immediately responded with "Ohhhhh, How about good time then?" - which I'm pretty sure he meant one night stand but obviously I couldn't catch my breath after laughing so hard long enough to tell him he's a very bad influence.
Not to mention I complimented him on the nail counter at the salon because the set up was very nice and all the nail techs shared their stations on this nicely finished high top bar instead of individual nail stations. I told Kevin that I liked it and that it sort of reminded me of the bar, especially with the flat screen behind him. After that being said I told him the only thing I was missing was a margarita. Without skipping a beat he joking told me "We don't have margaritas here but we have marajuanaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!" lol
Which totally cracked me up because it caught me off guard. In conclusion I learned that nail techs make better comedians than counselors because sometimes they're CRAZY!!!
So, once again I survived...
Friday, December 3, 2010
Life Is Too Short To Be Anything But Happy
Funny how I'm sitting here getting ready to blog for the evening and I start streaming the radio from my Itunes to listen to some 90's music and they happen to be playing "All That She Wants" by Ace Of Base. Of course when it got to the chorus "All that she wants is another baby" I couldn't help but chuckle while thinking (That's a negative, Ghostrider!) Figured I better start practicing now just in case I ever find myself tempted to plunge into the darkness again. Because we both know I'm not really going to stop shaving my legs.
I had a good laugh this morning when I arrived at work to find a couple of my co-workers at work briefly discussing making possible bets with each other, as to how long it will take me to cave in. Yep, it's nice to know that some people will always have your back. I'm curious as to whether or not there is a specific age out there that if you find yourself still single then you should worry. Then again if a woman does wait a lengthy amount of time who's to say she isn't holding out for the right one instead of settling for less. I remember telling someone a few months ago when they were down about being single that they should be happy because that just meant they weren't going to settle for anything less than what they deserved.
I feel like I've gotten my freedom back and that I can start forgiving myself. Sometimes we don't realize that the process of letting go is the same as learning to accept what is. There is so much less pressure when you simply realize that life is too short to be anything else but happy. To just roll with whatever happens without looking back and accept it without being critical. I've had a handful of people this week tell me that I am noticeably more happy then before. That makes me happy and gives me reassurance that I'm making more of the right choices and being true to myself.
I had a good laugh this morning when I arrived at work to find a couple of my co-workers at work briefly discussing making possible bets with each other, as to how long it will take me to cave in. Yep, it's nice to know that some people will always have your back. I'm curious as to whether or not there is a specific age out there that if you find yourself still single then you should worry. Then again if a woman does wait a lengthy amount of time who's to say she isn't holding out for the right one instead of settling for less. I remember telling someone a few months ago when they were down about being single that they should be happy because that just meant they weren't going to settle for anything less than what they deserved.
I feel like I've gotten my freedom back and that I can start forgiving myself. Sometimes we don't realize that the process of letting go is the same as learning to accept what is. There is so much less pressure when you simply realize that life is too short to be anything else but happy. To just roll with whatever happens without looking back and accept it without being critical. I've had a handful of people this week tell me that I am noticeably more happy then before. That makes me happy and gives me reassurance that I'm making more of the right choices and being true to myself.
"Freedom is never dear at any price. It is the breath of life. What would a man not pay for living?" -Mohandas Gandhi
Thursday, December 2, 2010
Sleepy Single Scorpio
So, I've been single for about 6 days now and I have to say it's quite liberating. In order to prevent myself from doing any further harm I've decided to ground myself from love relationships and to live an exciting single life for a while. I really have no idea what I'm doing but that is what will most likely lead to your entertainment.
For the past week I've been tossing around a few ideas with co-workers on how to steer clear of the opposite sex for a while. I pitched the clever idea that not shaving my legs might work and then someone else chimed in that if I decide to go that route then I ought to go the extra mile and include my arm pits, thus causing me to mentally scratch that idea all together immediately!
I've also taken note that the best time NOT to go grocery shopping if trying to stay single would be anytime after 9pm Monday through Thursday. These nights specifically, you will see a handful of single guys in there shopping due to their busy weekends and other than that the store will be dead. I did notice that it felt a little awkward in there when the fourth romantic duet song came on. Especially post break up the last thing you want to hear is Linda Ronstadt and Aaron Neville singing about how they don't know much except that they love each other and apparently that's all they need to know. It almost felt like someone was trying to stage one of those superficial meetings, you know the ones where you meet the love of your life conveniently standing in the produce section as you both reach for the same apple.
Don't worry though, Even though I was the only female in there I made sure to make minimal eye contact when walking past these gents. See no evil, Hear no evil .... Date no evil? Sounds good to me!
For the past week I've been tossing around a few ideas with co-workers on how to steer clear of the opposite sex for a while. I pitched the clever idea that not shaving my legs might work and then someone else chimed in that if I decide to go that route then I ought to go the extra mile and include my arm pits, thus causing me to mentally scratch that idea all together immediately!
I've also taken note that the best time NOT to go grocery shopping if trying to stay single would be anytime after 9pm Monday through Thursday. These nights specifically, you will see a handful of single guys in there shopping due to their busy weekends and other than that the store will be dead. I did notice that it felt a little awkward in there when the fourth romantic duet song came on. Especially post break up the last thing you want to hear is Linda Ronstadt and Aaron Neville singing about how they don't know much except that they love each other and apparently that's all they need to know. It almost felt like someone was trying to stage one of those superficial meetings, you know the ones where you meet the love of your life conveniently standing in the produce section as you both reach for the same apple.
Don't worry though, Even though I was the only female in there I made sure to make minimal eye contact when walking past these gents. See no evil, Hear no evil .... Date no evil? Sounds good to me!
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